♥Saturday, March 02, 2013
stability vs fulfullment part 2
It's a Saturday! And I'm up before 10am =D
Today, I decided not to make any outing plans and just stay at home. Everyone seem shocked (or perhaps it's my imagination) especially sis. I miss just being at home doing nothing and then find something impromtu to do at home like updating my blog (hmm.... perhaps playing the piano or picking up the guitar later today?).
Been reflecting a lot lately.
How am I as a friend..
How am I as a sister..
How am I as a daughter..
How am I as a girlfriend..
How am I as an employee..
How should I improve my lifestyle..
How... How... How...
And as I reflect every item above, I can find faults. Yes, no1 is perfect but I keep have the mental thoughts that I should have really put in a bit more effort.
Am I a perfectionist? Most of the times, I feel I am (explains why my work files need to be as good as I can make it... making me spend (waste) so much time compared to my other colleagues! >.<) At times, I tried to just cut the slack but I find it hard to. And if I do, somehow the review points gets to me!
"How can I make such silly mistakes...?"
"How can I miss this...?"
"How not to make such mistakes again...?"
LOL!! But come to think of it, it's not possible as a preparer of tax computation to notice every single detail right?! That's why there is another reviewer on the job. Sighs. Nevertheless, I'm still learning to work smart. I hope that years down the road as I read this post again. I will give myself a pat on the back and say "Yes, Amanda. You did it! You have learnt how to work smart and improve your productivity. On top of that, you have learnt the art of client and people management".
2 more months and it will mark my 2 years with my current company. As I look at the new girls who joined the Company, I saw myself in one of them. How anxious I was to get the job done and not dragging. Who expects the reviewer/ next level to look at what she prepared the moment she "submits" the work up. Who bring files to probe and ask questions because she felt lost. lol... Almost 2 years, no doubts that I have grown a little. And I find myself telling them things which my seniors and managers once told me. It's always a cycle.
Anyhow, I will be walking on a road with two path lanes soon. I will be walking on the line for a while. But I know there will be a day I need to choose which side to walk. The question is should I give up this stability to pursue fulfillment... I'll get the answer when I get there...
Quote: Sometimes, in order to achieve something, you need to give up another thing.
Hakuna Matata ; 10:54 AM
